Wow, wow, wow---fish smack in the head!! Thank you, Cornelius!!
Today's Master Class was just what the Doctor (of Consciousness) ordered for me!! I was so blown away-- that I jumped right off the class and excitedly onto the Echo. call----where I waited till 7 minutes into the Echo before realizing I had jumped on the Thursday's Echo....TWO DAYS early! HaHa!! Oh, geez!!
No matter. B/C I'd just won the Powerball of Mic Drops!!
B/c For some reason--it all clicked for me today.
No Wonder I felt sick to my stomach yesterday--in my heart of hearts-- when we were asked if we held fear of failure as a program, with regards to being able to heal ourselves......and I had to raise my hand with Nidhi and Joline and others and admit the Truth....
I NOW SEE the reason my Consciousness wanted me to see this.finally: It Wanted me to realize......There was an Elephant-In-The-Room Reason WHY I have NEVER had a reason to truly believe I would be successful. AND,it was NOT for the reason my ego was telling me I couldn't heal myself.
My ego told me yesterday, and for all these months/years before, that I Truly DIDIN"T BELIEVE I COULD HEAL MYSELF....b/c I had NOT BEEN SUCCESSFUL in all my past efforts to heal my physical body, or change long-held feelings unworthiness and sadness towards myself----regarding my family of origin. B/c I was unable to love myself etc. Missing the magic touch. Too broken.
Blah, Blah, Blah....
Then, with today's FISH SMACK: I suddenly saw the Truth. My Consciouness KNEW IT WAS THE TRUTH--- what Cornelius told us again today: THAT I CAN NEVER HEAL MYSELF if the bulk of my time is spent focasing on the PAIN of my yesterday's.....both last wee's....and the last decades' of yesterdays.
IF I CONTINUE DOING THAT I WILL CONTINUE TO FAIL TO HEAL MYSELFI------just as my ego fears......If I focus on the injustices, or spending my focus trying to prove my worth/goodness/ loveableness to myself or others.....I will go a few more decades in the same agony.
DO I WANT TO BE HAPPY.???....Yes.
WILL I EVER SUCCEED ......??? Not, if I don't TAKE UP THE STONE AND USE IT....AS IT IS INTENDED.
By the way, I've been holding my Grattitude consistenly in the past week.....but just the dancing-around-the-fire version of holding the gratitude stone.
IT WASN"T until TODAY....and ANOTHER FISH SMACK. to the head....That I heard what I'm supposed to DO WITH THE STONE, in actuality.......
HOLD IT AND THINK OF WHAT I HAVE TO BE GRATEFUL ---FOR WHAT I ALREADY HAVE---right NOW....in the moment of HOLDING THE STONE..... (my ego conveniently missed that part in the past)
IN One of my conversations with Consciousness ----MYSELF----I ACTUALLY TOLD MYSELF ABOUT THE IMPORTANCE OF ME USING THE GRATITUDE STONE DIRECTLY...and Yet, it wasn't UNTIL TODAY.....that I HEARD.....That Only With the Stone ....and Being Grateful ---for what I ALREADY HAVE.....(NOT WHAT I"LL BE GRATEFUL FOR ONCE I HEAL...... can you Be in the Present....ONLY THE PRESENT is where TRUE HEALING OCCURS.
It's the only, ONLY way to successfully Heal and Change my Life.
Fish Smack. And, Sorry Conscoiusnes that it took a few months for me to actually Hear You. Actually HEAR YOU.
Ps. Thank you, Cornelius!!
I noticed that you were one of those with their hands up…and said…not possible!…just like Nidhi!…l have seen your conversations….witnessed the magic & miracles….the tears…the joy…the light of realization in the eyes….you’ve come too far to be back at zero…l get it!…we all have doubts…stumble & fall down…most definitely me…but l still believe there will come a time when the dominoes fall & many of us will suddenly turn the corner…l was overjoyed to see this post from you….CC says things a million times…a million ways….& lights go on every day….we all receive it, hear it differently, until it all fits perfectly & the light goes & we scream Bingo!….so thrilled that this was your day…..bravo beautiful!…it was an amazing class…an eye opener & a huge wake up call! Thank you for sharing your moment with us…l found it uplifting!…inspiring!