The little things that are BIG!
Dear beautiful family! I wish to share my joy with you all ๐ It's past 2 am here yet I just need to share this... befor I forget these few realisation! I started with CC in november last year and looking back on my last 2 Weeks I realized that my codependant tendancy are almost gone! I got back out into the dating pool after experiencing a jakyll/Hyde story, met someone who at first made me feel safe but it quickly turned sour. I realized that it was only a one way road & I was selling myself short! OMG ๐I am worthy of being treated so much better, especially by myself Holly Moses! I am starting to see myself & my worth!
Furthermore I had someone come up to me & ask if I had money to spare as he needed to find a place to stay the night, not wanting to sleep on the streets. I am currently without a job but without thinking I opened up my purse and handed him 20โฌ. I am till today surprised at how I reacted, no fear, no doubt, I just felt it was the right thing to do & trusted that I will be okay financially. And guess what peeps!!!๐ Today my dad set up a monthy transfer of a little amount to my bank account which will reduce the financial stress on me โบ๏ธ
Something else that I realized is that after reading ONEO the book, I asked myself the question where I was the one who caused hurt & suffering to others... this one school acquitance kept coming to my mind. Growing up I never use to fit in & there was this one year where I did have some (fake) friends and could have included this other girl who was having a hard time but did not out of fear that I would be the outkast again. I wrote her a few months back saying I was sorry for contributing to her pain. We met up a few times & now today I can say that she has become a good friend to me. We may not be on the exact same wave ength but she is the only one I would say that I can be myself around!๐ I've been looking for "big" changes all these past months, not realizing that I don't need to have a million on my bank account to be rich! A friend, trust that money will come my way & finally realizing bit by bit my worth are change.... bigger than I at first even realized :) I trully wish for all of us to live in this gratitude and joy that I feel at the moment! Life is sooooo getting better๐ฆ
Much much love to you all ๐๐๐ธ
thank you so much for your sharing!