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Happy New Year Everyone

This morning I listened to Cornelius’s recorded session ‘Why Am I here’ and wow did that open a whole can of worms. Well a couple of cans in the end.

In the session Cornelius said “Ask yourself honestly why are you here doing this session? Now you may have many answers but I’m going to ask you to get it down to one”  My response was ‘to set myself free.’ That really triggered a lot, I felt so much sadness and grief being released from my body through tears and yawning.  The realization that I have smothered and imprisoned myself with all these beliefs and they are simply not true. 

It’s always feels like I’m standing in a really small cage that only I can see, that I put myself in and that I can step out of whenever I want, but I’m too scared to.  Everything I want, all the good stuff is outside the cage, there for the taking within easy reach, but I’m stopping myself.  How stupid is that?  The frustration I feel knowing that I have done this to myself is really hitting me now as I type this. 

(I needed to stop typing and forgive myself for what I have done to myself over the years, for all that I have deprived myself of.  I sat and did Ho’oponopono to let it all go … Feeling rather brain dead now, but peaceful and accepting . As Cornelius says ‘I only knew what I knew,’ I didn’t know any other way of navigating life.)

During the session I had the memory of a program I use to watch with the kids come up. It was called ‘Myth Busters’ these science geeks would investigate myths or beliefs about things, we loved it, we were so curious to know the truth and their fun ways of testing.  It made me realise I have to become my own myth buster, there is nothing to FEAR (False Evidence Appearing Real) I need to lighten up, be curious and ask ‘is that true?’  Then consciously disagree if it’s not.  As with everything it's all on how you look at it and you can always flip it (can't remember what master class that was, but I do remember that bit)

This month I’ve come to realize through ‘You 2.0’ that I am filled with lies, so so many lies.  That either I’ve been told or I’ve told myself.  This session really brought that truth home.  I have been smoothing my true self with these lies/beliefs and locking myself up inside. 

I have definitely released a lot of my sadness and grief this morning but will be coming back to this session again tomorrow to see if there is any left.

I am all in,  how can I not be, knowing what I now know.  Even if it takes me the next 30 years to finally set myself free it will be so worth it.  What better purpose is there to have in life?  When I finally pop my clogs, I’m going to have the biggest smile on my face because I did it, even if only for a day.

Not being a very patient person, I want to embrace and experience all the abundance that is there waiting for me now.  So 2024 is my year to freedom, no it is our year to freedom, if we chose.

Sending you all so much love x