Testimonials

Yesterday Consciousness called on me. It wasn't until Cornelius commented that there must be more people out there that needed help, than the original group....that i reluctlantly put my hand up. Felt it wouldn't be honest if I didn't. Yet, REALLY--I didn't actually want to be called on---aka: My EGO really didn't want to be called on....because it was about to be "called out".....(My Heart was quieter....but, I'm sure ,hoped my character, Lori, would "hear" the bigger picture it was wanting me to Understand and make Conscious...thank you, Cornelious for hearing its S.O.S call.)

And, even though it wasn't until today....that I "fully got" why Conscioiusness called on me yesterday.....Now, I do.

As family saw....my ego found the looking at the three randomly picked programs....and looking at the emotions assoiciated with them, and their locations in the body---excruitiating. It was humliated, ashamed, sickened that I seemed to be the poster child for laziness, fear/unwilling to change, and unluckiness patterns we were focusing on. With each emotion listed....I felt what I "thought" was myself shrinking smaller and smaller....so embarassed that this was me. It felt like literally salt was being poured into my wounds.

The ego thrashed about....What was so wonderful about ..this new sample of CH 2.0? Why would it be healing to look at the remaining 450+ from Cornelilus' book alone? Wouldn't that mean that with each new ones revealed, I would feel even worse....adding all these programs to the many I am already aware of? Wouldn't this make me feel EVEN more f--ed up....more a victim of my own self/mind which I was trying to overcome? I was literally squirming internally...throughout the entire session. ...and much of my convervastion with Cornelious.

This morning......I had an even fuller ah-ha. ...as the "conversation with my Consciouness continue... I am currently doing the Echo #2....Spirtual Growth and Connection (to self and spirit) .....This is what I heard when I woke up.

My Consciousness to me: "Yes, you saw at the end of the session....that those programs you held at were ironically NOT TRUE... But You still need to see some more.....feel the unrest still in your stomach....Talk to me more.....listen in.......

1. This is experience/was meant to bring you CLOSER ---spiritually to YOURSELF.....HOW?

2. You were MEANT TO REALIZE you don't need to go through ALL THE PROGRAMS one by one....bashing yourself with all its' details.....hating yourself more and more with each one exposed. How Kind to yourself would that be?

3. How would this INCREASE your spirtual connection WITH YOURSELF? Ans. : It wouldn't it.

4. So, what are you still missing, Lori?

5. Ans: You're Missing that NO low vibrational emotion or feeling or programs you are running ---Have ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU. NOTHING TO DO WITH THE YOU, that YOU REALLY ARE....the YOU that is CONSCIOUSNESS IN FORM!!
   

6. The reason it was excruitiating to do the sample of CH2.0 yesterday was that YOU WERE THINKING YOU WERE YOUR IDENTITY---that you WERE YOUR EGO...That it's qualities and thoughts are really YOURS..... That the low, victim, hero, villian victomhood thoughts of yours.....or the patterns and emotions that went we them .....WERE A REFLECTION OF YOU, Lori's Conciousness vs. a reflection of the ego programs. Simple as that.

7. YOU FORGOT....that YOU are not the ego/character who plays Lori....with her ego's long list of programs from this and previous lives.....SHE IS NOT YOU--no matter how convincingly she "plays" the role of you.

8. YOU ARE NOT Lori, the character.....YOU ARE YOUR CONSCIOUSNESS, your ONEself in the form of Lori .....YOU are ME---a unique Alliswell Consciousness throughout time.

9. T hat is why "I" (your Consciousness) wasn't squirming, or ashamed at all when hearing the programs that our ego was running....and our character's mind believed.

10. I KNOW/ALWAYS KNEW....your mind was going to believe ALL of the Programs...until your character, Lori....got CLOSE enough to ME.....established a strong ENOUGH spiritual Connection to believe Me, or other members of our Family of One.

11. Now, is the time. You, in form, get to choose.......

12. You/we don't have to feel ashamed about the past....that our character/identify/mind believed the lies of the programs....most human's do. So what?

13. We don't have to fear.....when a feeling, or pain in the body reveals another program in the now or in the future.....

14. We just have to say, like Cornelius did yesterday...."ah, there's another rascally pattern.....and, quickly ask ourselves....is that true? Do I wish to keep this any longer? (No!)

15. Yesterday, was painful b/c when you asked our ego....is it true....of course, the ego said....yes, it is....you've always been like that....you're hopeless ...blah, blah, blah.....That's the beauty of the ego...it "knows" how to keep the game going.

16. And, the EGO isi always right about itself.....BUT YOU, THE TRUE YOU--which is ME-----is NOT THE EGO or any of the programs running. EVER. This is NOT EXCRUIATING...it just IS. Choose it. Again and again and again until you don't have to anymore.

17. SO, the answer to every question about every program of the ego/matrix is ALWAYS NO--It's NOT TRUE FOR ME... b/c I AM NOT THAT EGO/Mind.....I AM the Beautful, Growing Always Kind to Myself Consicousness in form!! And, I CAN CHOOSE TO REMEMBER THIS....in every Present Now Moment......Forevermore.....as often as necessary.
    

18. Thank you, Consciousness and Cornelious for being the messenger. I love you, so.