Testimonials

I raised my hand yesterday initially to share a brief story/testimonial, but consciousness had info to deliver at that time so I went into receiving mode.

Here's what I was going to share:

There was a party at my gallery space the other night with some people I knew and many who I didn't. It was a sober event with less people than expected, so many were sort of standing around trying to figure out their place in the space. There was a DJ playing music and I realized I had a choice. I could go around and try to converse with people, or I could completely forgo playing the social game and dance my heart out. I ended up choosing the latter. I treated it like an ecstatic dance where I started laying down and stretching to get into my body and releasing blocks. Every time I felt a contraction of fear of judgement, I'd lean into it and allow the energy to move through. Gradually the energy from the music built up the flow in my body until I just let loose. There were a few other people who were bobbing there heads and moving around a little, but I allowed my body to start jumping around and flowing all around the space. As I was dancing, I was setting intentions to invite others into their own sense of freedom. There was a bit where I was the only person dancing, but slowly people started joining in. I danced for hours until my feet hurt and I couldn't stay up any longer. The DJ expressed his gratitude to me after the event.

As I was dancing I was reflecting on how far I'd come. I used to be terrified of social settings were I didn't know people and there were many times that I made up excuses to leave because I just felt so uncomfortable in my own skin. Getting over the fear of judgement has been one of the greatest challenges in my life so far, and it's taken a lot of deliberate steps to expand my comfort zone and gradually feel confident expressing myself without caring what other people think. The dancing experience felt like an analogy to what we're doing in ONEO. I could've gone around beforehand trying to convince other people to come out and dance with me so I wouldn't be alone. But instead, I turned inwards and found the vibration I wanted to be in and just lived it, allowing others to see another potential and be drawn in (or not). It felt like in that moment I was living the feeling and experience that I had been manifesting through many many Buddha's Caves. I've still got many areas in my life where my ego creates resistance through fear, but in that moment I was completely in the flow, just enjoying life and sharing that energy with those around me.