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Good morning,

Ok, so life has taken a real interesting turn with my relationship with myself and consciousness. The struggles of parenting, especially after leaving a Narcissist and the residue of the patterns and loops linger, and showing up in your kids behavior bring it to a whole new level. In fact, this is probably the biggest trauma I face in this lifetime! Loosing my kids to narcissistic behavior has broken me over and over, and they think I’m an idiot, weak and not worth anything because Dad always got the better of me.

My so called ‘Spiritual’ journey was tested to its max with parenting and trying to teach encourage…went partially crazy trying to show my kids how to not to be a Narcisistic personality.

My son Shimi, the best of us in this nut bird family…met a community of friends in his new school that brought in loud and proud ….his Dads patterns and loops ….and I went loopy!!!

The fighting, arguing, lying and just basic, who gives a fuck, I’m doing it my way pattern, drove me to my breaking point! Yes shimi is sweet, but holy cow, this was a test for both of us.

Well, Monday I had had enough, working with my mentor, who is a wise women, we talked about Shimi. Evasive she could sense my distress, so we did some work and I asked consciousness for help! I was at my end with it….i could feel the dark coming out in me again….i mean, go live with you Dad, fuck this etc etc…. I kinda of screamed out in a crazy nut bird way to consciousness right infront of my son… I was so triggered after he said some gaslighting shit to me, lied to me over and over, I was sinking fast. So I asked for help…..well screamed it really ….and then I got it! Phone call came in, nailing his lies….shit showed up all over the place…..he got angry at me, the lights would flicker, didn’t want to listen to me, so the car door would lock on him 😆, didn’t want to listen to me, nothing would work out, I asked for help and boy was I getting it 🙌💥I gave up and let consciousness help me parent this kid because I was a done mom!

He missed the school bus on Tuesday, I couldn’t drive, car is in the shop, so he stayed home and worked online. That was the day of the new echo…..and guess what, holy cow the same stuff I rambled on about with my son in a crazy fit, Was repeated in the echo….even when Cornelius said …I don’t know I think someone needs to hear this today….my sons eye popped out 🎊🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣💥. The words, the phrases….all came together repeating echoing my plea to him …of course I cried and laughed 😂 at the same time, watching, hearing and feeling so grateful, I could have barfed up flowers 🌹

Omg co-parenting with consciousness ….now why didn’t I think of that before……why do I have to go nuts before I let consciousness in…🤪

So, Since the echo on Tuesday, I’m now in a totally different vibe with my son….he gets it more and more and is making choices because ….he wants to give out a different echo to create a different life and he knows I was fighting not him ….but what he was putting out there, and I was loosing him and freaking out. He gets it more…and I get my reactions were messed up and triggered, but the real change came, when I decided to love myself enough to say NO, even though it was my son ….loving myself happened and I asked for help and consciousness did. So our dialogue changed from fighting this battle to …what the fuck was this for…..we needed to love ourselves.

Love ourselves enough to Change, but we didn’t know how, so I ask for help and wow……holy cow wow, the lessons keep pouring in , No more weird arguing or gaslighting or thoughts so dark I wanted to leave.

I was so happy during that echo session ….i was swaying and giggling, and my son looked like there was no where to run or hide….consciouness is everywhere kiddo 😆. Ahhhhhhhh but the thing is …..he’s such a beautiful soul and he needed reminding that….so he was blocked when he wasn’t that, and so far its changed our dialogue. Even this morning resisting me ….didnt take long for something to kick in and he stopped ….got the message and understood this isn’t about mom and her beliefs, as he was programmed to believe by his dad ….it’s about knowing himself, so he can have the best life he can possible have and know ….he’s never alone, and Mom isn’t completely full of shit!!!!

So, co-parenting with consciouness now …..my new norm and I’ll be sharing this delight with moms all over ….its a new Day!!!! It’s just silly how I have to break down before I ask for help ….I mean, that’s got to change 🙏🏻.

Inviting consciousness in and getting out of my past mom ways now 🙏🏻. I love family ♥️♥️♥️💎🦋