Testimonials

My testimonial is made in a round about way...pun intended. ..(and revealed later in this post.) December's Echo was Inner Peace & Emotional Well Being, and January's was #12, Happiness and Contentment.

My ah-ha moment starts with the same observation that many of us are coming to --the same conclusion....which is that, ironically, just as Cornelious says each time.... once you "choose" an Echo, your Conciousness offers you LOTS of examples of that which you are seeking....and LOTS of examples of that which you are NOT SEEKING....aka: the actual opposite of your echo's title.

We've been seeing this confirmed in every discussion --after every Echo and conversations. My January....was basically FILLED with almost a full month's worth of painful examples of the exact opposite of the Happiness and Contentment Echo I chose.

Every single day was another round of attempting to Consciously Disagree with my mind's long list of live/daily examples of unhappy disconnections and tangibly painful experiences of loss with familiy of birth members both alive and dead.... I wrested with that for three weeks....had a few days break....and then, Consciousmness "gifted" me a HUGE new disconnect between me and two friends.

This out-of-the-blue incident inflamed dischord between them and left me in the thankless role in the middle. Worse, I had a part in it, though it wasn't my intent. I spent the week putting out the fire and trying hard not to beat myself further for my mistake. The month still ended--with me trying to desparately trying to find Happiness & Contentment in the littlest of things. I was feeling like an absolute failure....

I had choosen the Inner Peace & Well Being of last month's echo...in the month of December.....but how could I CHOOSE Happiness and Contentment in such clearly sad, and ego unjust circumstances as the loops of January?

And, that's when I thought of one of my favorite scenes in Mary Poppins....She, Burt, and the kids ( Jane & Michael) have jumpted into the sidewalk drawing and are now riding round and round on a Carousol... on their horses....up and down they go, as they circle round and round.....

Michael is yahooing.....

Jane says, smiling..."Our own private Merry-Go-Round!"

And Burt, lying back contently on his horse, says..."Very nice, very nice indeed-----if you don't want to go nowhere..."

Mary Poppins: " Who says we're not going anywhere...?"

And, with that she calls upon the guard working inside the carousel...and he nods to her....."Right then, Mary Poppins" and he releases them from the ride by pulling deliberately on a lever--which releases them all....and off they ride into the English Countryside. I always LOVED this part.

Q. How does this relate to the Echo's....at least for me?

Ans. I can keep going round and round....fighting with all the titles of every echo I choose.....I can keep battling all that Consciousness brings me good and bad.... and try to wrestle to the ground and defend every "unjust" opposite of every echo's title....I can keep tyring to "PROVE" it's not my fault, or justify that I am a victim---caught in endless ego loops and patterns and relationships....I can KEEP CHOOSING to go round and round in endless loops-- justifying my self-hatred for not being able to free myself of this merry-go-round I've created, or the world has created collectively.....

.And, with that SAME OLD CHOICE, I can continue to make life as "very nice" enough as I can."....BUT, I'll still be making nice out of just going round and round...and like Bert said....go NO WHERE.....

OR, I can CHOOSE to make the consious Command to the Guard.....which I guess would be ME to MY OWN HEART....and I CAN DELIBERATELY PULL THE LEVER AND say....."Enough is Enough....I want to ride in the Countryside....I want to ENJOY my life and SEE ALL THAT IS OUT THERE....insteadof the same old view of this limited tiny circle I've been CHOOSING and ...endlessly repeating.

Specifically using last month's echo....I could keep PRETENDING that I don't know I'm on a flippin' ride that MOVES in a endless circle....and never goes ANYWHERE.....and ALL I"LL BE IS AN OLDER VERSION OF MYSELF (Jane)...all grown up and still on the ride.......OR I CAN REALIZE....I'm not Jane, the victim of the ride I find myself...but I AM ACTUALLY MARY POPPINS....creator of her OWN ride.

I can 100% OWN the facts of ME....THE TRUTH OF ME....Who I really Am.....and by doing so I CHOOSE HAPPINESS and thoughts of Contentment.......Or not. It's always me who gets to choose which version of the ride I'm on....not anything outside myself....Not anything my Consciousness might send me to help me choose.

So, I hope my ah'ha makes sense outside of my own self......Our Third round of montthly Echo's (I'm choosing #2) starts in less than twenty minutes.....I've got to get ready for the next ride in the Countryside. Thanks for reading,

Lori, Alliswell/Blackwell