Testimonials

I'm copying this over from Social Coherence.

(Update: after this was posted consciousness called on me and relayed that these responses to scents were truama related to being a child and not getting the attention I needed. So I have been working with this and frustration in the sinuses. My sensitivity to scents, even chemical scents, has indeed decreased.)

I want to give a testimonial to the work we are doing in 2.0. Maybe it will encourage others to join who are on the fence about YOU 2.0.

I had a HOLY SHIT WHAT JUST HAPPENED moment this morning.

I am a pretty kind compassionate person and yet one emotion that I have struggled with since my earliest memories is rage. I swallowed it all down throughout my childhood, didn't express it, and it along with the grief are a root cause of my digestive issues. All the work we have been doing lately in CH with releasing blame, victimization and anger has brought up some deeper layers that I have always struggled with and expanded my awearness as to how that vicitimization identitiy sneakes in. It has been amazing to watch this stuff come up and be released... finally... one layer at a time.

I have always been sensitive to many things, especially scents. Not just chemical scents, but natural ones as well. I like to have a scent free home with lots of fresh outstide air when cool enough. One scent that can send me into intense anger and tension is coffee. If I smell coffee being brewed and I am wanting to rest/relax I get livid. Not sure where this came from as my family didn't drink coffee so it isn't a childhood thing. I have always asked my husband to make his coffee in the garage. This morning he was singing and in the moment and forgot.

I was still in bed when the offending smell entered. I could feel the blame & agitation rising and then suddenly I heard a voice say "Who can't relax with the smell of coffee? Is that true?"

Totally caught me off guard. I felt suddenly split in my mind... left side was the questioning voice.... right was the angry thoughts and I was the observer of this. I was able to immediately drop any attachment to the emotions, smells, all of it. I became neutral and perplexed at the same time.

Then I thought this is it! This is why 2.0 is so important. This is why we need to become the OBSERVER of all our old patterns, thoughts, loops. To bring the unconscious habits forward and see them for what they really are, then they lose their power.

I know many are still uncertain about what we are doing with YOU 2.0 and if it is working. IT IS WORKING! I have struggled here and there with observing my thoughts during the calls, thinking I must not be doing it right, but I kept doing it without expectations anyway, allowing whatever happens or doesn't to be okay. I also am not able to attend all the live sessions, but commit to the breath work we have learned and do it on my own several times a week, even through those moments of self-doubt. I made self-doubt my friend and invited her to sit on my shoulder while I am doing it anyway until she gets bored and leaves. I can see now it has been working, maybe more behind the scenes than obvious to me, but it all led up to this moment when the habit was stopped by my own consciousness wihtout me even trying to. Keep with it!